Destroyed

You wanted to see how far you could beat me down
So that maybe when you got me to the end of my rope
Maybe you would feel grimly satisfied with yourself
But all you will find
Is ugliness
Ugliness is the inner core of my being
This overwhelming rage that consumes my soul
Destroying everything in it's path
I am so done trying to contain it in
This maelstrom
Better to let it destroy everything
Then to let this pummel my soul any longer
Already down to the deepest pits of it's despair

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