Frozen

It is embarrassing to look at you
Realizing I bared so much of myself to you
Now we are merely strangers
Now I bow my head and smile in spite of myself
Realizing that I am stuck in the past with visions of you
I am so tired and feeling so hopeless
Wouldn't tell you this because I want what's best for you
Just wish I felt deserving of love for once 
Instead of pricking myself until there is nothing left of me 
Until I explode to rebirth again

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