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I just wrote a post on Wordpress that took a whole hour. I said something very important about the shooting in Florida, but nobody wanted to hear it. It was about drugs causing the problem of mass shootings in America. I'm infuriated, upset really, that I can't help but only get hateful comments when I mention one thing that someone doesn't like - like gun control. The commentor will likely remain anonymous, even though he agrees with what I say on the drugs.
I just need someone to understand. Do you know how hard it is for me to write? I used to be so good at it, but I've been through so much it is impossible to do anymore. I understand that discussion should be allowed online, and that people have different opinions, but I would like one person to please support and respect my ability to write online.
Do you know what PTSD is like? It really sucks. I've been raped, abused, physically assaulted, verbally harassed; and I'm writing on here. I'm trying to find some way to move beyond the things I write by writing about how I feel, but I feel so discouraged when NOBODY can support what I am doing irregardless of their own opinions. Meanwhile, people write non-biased writing and get lots of comments because the author was pretty or sweet.
No you were not forcibly institutionalized. You were not raped, or assaulted, or told "nobody wants you" but please respect the fact that I am a writer and what to write. That I want to share my opinion and participate. Please acknowledge the fact that it is so hard for me to open myself up to anyone now because I have little support systems, and most have dissappeared because I didn't "fit in" to their ideas of who I should be like. Please understand I'm just trying to feel like I matter. That I could help other people. If you can't do that, why the hell would you get mad about one thing? Restrict to one comment. Especially if your blog is full of porn stars, glorifying women that bare all and only care about looks.
For god's sake, please try to be kind, because I can't bear so much online hate. It infurtiates me. It makes me so depressed. It makes me feel like I don't matter. Please just stop. I want to feel like I can write. I want to feel like my opinions matter. Anyone should, so why do we censor people who we automatically view as wrong? Please just stop. Please just start supporting your fellow writers.

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  1. UnknownJune 2, 2018 at 8:42 AM

    Hi, Laura. I've been trying to contact you regarding your comment, "I am a direct descendant of William H. Gray." He is in fact,my 3 times Great Grandfather. Would love to speak to you about this.

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