One Day

Maybe I was dreaming that you loved me It must have been the way you touched me That made me imagine intimacy Maybe I was dreaming that you loved me The way you confided in me Made me believe in myself Maybe I was dreaming that you loved me I practiced a smile And to you I was glowing Maybe I was dreaming that you loved me For when you chose me for my mind I believed there was more to life than looks ... Maybe I was dreaming that you loved me You told me that you needed space I had no clue I interfered Maybe I was dreaming that you loved me I called you every night I was shockingly ugly Maybe I was dreaming that you loved me For I was crying in parking lots Writing morbid poetry Maybe I was dreaming that you loved me I could never sleep And I wished my life away ... Then at some point when you texted me Everything was anew And then again I lost you I don't know where I went wrong I see you everywhere You are so happy and I am so sad You a

I wish there was a way to not love you but I do and it's hurting me. I thought about you the whole ride here. Even going to sleep that night, tears streamed down my eyes for 2 hours until I woke up and realized I was still thinking about you and had not fell asleep. I'm in pain. When will I ever feel okay again?

Reaching for you In places that have been left By the memory of you Burning through my head Just the very thought of you Makes me wonder of things unknown In my future And on this day I hope you are happy Even if I will never see you again I hope you think of me And know I didn't wish you harm I hope you know I loved you And though I am lonely And crazy I will make it through some day It's been lonely looking at the stars Without being in your arms I wonder if I am beautiful enough To be loved at all But someday I won't be alone And at that moment I will know I am home Until then I am alone And that is Okay too Sitting here And thinking of you